i love home.
:D
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February 28, 2008 at 3:52 pm (Thoughts)
Tags: Caffeine, Coffee, Lack of Sleep, Library, Sleep
I can feel my mentality slowing creeping back as espresso revives me. Long days turn to nights when I lay in bed, not even thinking, just laying there waiting for sleep to drift me away. As of lately, that drifting momentum takes hours to come. Even when I do finally fade away its only to the tossing and turning of comfort not being found. For once I would like to be able to fall asleep quickly and not wake up every hour of the night. Its not fun. At least the library offers this relief of caffeine, well, relief in exchange for payment of course. Maybe this will keep me awake for my last class before I’m finally going to be able to go home and rest. Maybe.
to be or not to be…i think i might…
February 27, 2008 at 11:27 pm (Rants, Thoughts)
Tags: AIM, Burden, Chi Alpha, Chilling, Class, Coffee Shops, Cold, College, Crushes, Fashion, Flirting, Flirty, Freezing, friends, Frustrated, Girls, Guys, Happy, Heat, Hospital, Library, Life, Matrix, Morphine, Ranting, Relationships, Sad, School, Star Wars, Surgury, Talks, XA
Ahhh. Today has been a fairly good day, besides this headache that is starting to set in from getting a little frustrated within this past half of the day, but other than that pretty good.
Classes were boring as usual-although, I did get out early, a whole five minutes early since what seemed to be less than half the class was there. My teacher was so glad the rest of us came and didn’t start our spring break three days early, that he let us out a whole five minutes early. Talk about lame. haha. But at least I beat Car to the coffee shop.
Speaking of Car, I got to hang out with her for over two hours today! 
Can you say “Happy!”??? I never get to see her and she’s one of my best friends so that was just totally amazing. We hung out in the library for awhile today before lunch, and then after law class we met up at a local coffee shop here off the street and chilled for like an hour and half. It was awesome! I got an small iced mocha (duh!) and tried their chocolate chip muffin (not the greatest I’ve ever had-I think it was organic too, like the drinks), and she got a small mocha and a danish. It was pretty sweet. We talked about everything. I’m not a girl who likes to hang out much with other girls. Most girls are too preppy for me. I’m not one to do the whole dress fashionably, wear make-up, talk about clothes/shoes/blahblahblah….you get the picture. With Car, its different. We talk about school, life, insequirities, worries, problems, exciting stuff going on in our lives, God, and more. There are very few people, or girls rather, that I can have real conversations like that without feeling like I’m being a fake person. Its sad to say, but probably the reason why I don’t hang out with more girls in XA is because they are too preppy for me; too girly-girl for me. I’m just not like that. Now, Car, she’s pretty girly at times, but at least I can have real convos with her without feeling like I’m fronting who I really am-and that’s pretty sweet. Thank the Lord for placing best friends in my life, and three at that.
I also got to hang out with Davina for awhile today. Now, with her we talked about fashion. =P But thats cuz we were picking back up on a convo that I brought up this past weekend. haha. But then, she and I are good at encouraging one another, and giving insight and advice, like later on tonight just before she left. And Davina-if you’re reading this-YOU HAD BETTER HAVE TOLD YOUR PARENTS!!!!! Yea thats rite-I wrote it out! Imma ask ur sister tomorrow if you did or not!!!
…I think an old crush is coming back….I don’t know if thats a good thing or not. I told Davina a little about it earlier today. Over the summer, I got to hang out with some of the people that were up here, and throughout the activities we would do during the weeks, I got to know them pretty well. Well, one of the guys I started developing a crush on. When fall started, it kind of seemed like maybe he was liking me back. Then again, I could have just been reading signs that weren’t there (i tend to do that a bit). But stuff like, at a football game, he went out to look for me after I had been away for too long (I couldn’t stand the smell of the drunken people around us-it made me about throw up, so instead I just went to the top and watched the game up there). He found me and then played it off like he was actually looking for an ATM, and then didn’t even go to it to get cash. *rolls eyes* And the fact that my friend later told me that he had been asking questions about where I was, and getting kind of worried before he went looking for me…that kinda makes me think that maybe he did like me. Just stuff like that-little things that could be overlooked. But then, me and this other guy started “talking” I guess you could say, and nothing ever happened. But as of lately…I don’t know….I think its starting to come back…arrgg. I don’t wanna think about it. I over-analyze things in my mind too much. So I’m just going to stop right now.
One thing that made me really happy today was the fact that we were able to go see DT tonite at the hospital. We were told that he’d be in ICU for a few days, but he randomly aimed me before lunch (and he never aims) and told me that he was out. He said he had just read a message from the xa pastor talking about how he could receive visitors since he had been moved, so he aimed me wondering if I knew anything about people coming up. I hadn’t, since I never got the message, but I was like, dude, if you’re out of icu, i’m pretty sure that people are going to come see you. Then he started being the guy that he is, and saying how he didn’t want to be a burden to anyone and ask for people to come see him, but I could tell that he would really like it if people did. And of course, he mentioned the other night and how much that meant to him, and I told him that he definitely is NOTa burden to us, and that we love him, and definitely want to be there for him while he goes through all of this. He’s a great guy. As Austin said earlier tonight, DT is very burden-conscious, in the fact that he doesn’t want people to go out of their way for him if it causes them to add more to what they already have going on. But a group of us went out there to see him. He looked good, all things considering. His head was all bandaged up and he was drugged up so he was kind of in and out of it, especially towards the end. Hopefully, he’ll get out tomorrow and head home, starting his spring break waay early.
Oh man, as of lately I’ve gotten so frustrated-not mad, just frustrated. I had to spend a few hours watching a guy flirt with one of my best friends, and it was just like, ‘are you freaking serious??’ So incredibly frustrating. If a guy spends basically the whole time teasing one girl, wouldn’t that come off as flirting?? I mean, if the girl spent her time teasing one guy it would come off as the girl being flirty with the guy. And the fact that she didn’t initiate any of it-how do you expect a girl to act when a guy is flirty with her? It was just frustrating. And when it was finally just me and her, she was like, ‘i’m so sorry about that.’ I told her I didn’t blame her because I knew she wasn’t flirting back, but it was just really frustrating to see that the guy, who claims he doesn’t flirt with her, spent almost the whole time he was with us flirting with her. And please don’t think that I’m jealous about it because that is the furthest thing from my mind, trust me. Its just annoying when your trying to hang out with one of your best friends and a group of friends, when a guy spends the entire time being flirty to your best friend. That probably didn’t make any sense but whatever-she and I understand each other on the whole thing, and she’s got my back on it all-so thats the only part that matters in the end.
I came upstairs tonight, only to find that someone had come up here, and turned OFF my heat. WHY?????? its FREEZING up here!!! and its now only starting to warm back up-after like 45 minutes of being on now. Its NOT your heater!!! Its NOT your house!! You don’t pay rent!! Don’t come up here and turn off MY heat!!! Arrrrggg…that made me get a little mad. I like to be warm inside thank you very much.
Anyways….I should probably stop ranting for the whole strange world to read….at least for now. I need to get to bed anyways. I have an 8:30 class in the morning, and I need to make sure that I actually get up for it!
Morphine causes Matrix and Star Wars Worlds (just FYI),
-immashutterbug
DANCE!
February 27, 2008 at 1:57 am (Uncategorized)
Tags: dance, Fun, Life, People
So I came across this tonight on my friend’s facebook wall that her boyfriend had left her. It’s pretty funny in my opinion.
The First Person in the History of the World To Dance
check it out and tell me what you think.
-immashutterbug
February 25, 2008 at 11:34 pm (Pictures, Thoughts)
Tags: College, friends, Hospitals, Life, Night, Pictures, Railroad, Road Trips, Tracks, Trains
Tonight, a group of friends and I went to the hospital to visit a good friend of ours who’s going to have surgery tomorrrow. There were 8 of us total who went to go see him. I’m glad I went. I wasn’t sure if just his lifegroup was going, making it a guy only thing or not, but it basically was anyways since I was once again the only girl there, but it didn’t matter. I was just glad to go and support him…or at least let him know that I’m praying for him and that all goes well..
Picture taken on a phone. We saved this as the background of his computer.
On an interesting note, getting to the room was a majorly fun experience. While leaving town, we pull up to a stop light and it turns out one of the guys, Joey, was in the truck next to us! Talk about random! So he drives ahead of us and pulls over at the next off-ramp, and we follow him so that he could ride the rest of the way there. So we start back on the highway and I notice the time. 8:15pm. I tell Archer, “Yea, we definetely aren’t making it there by 8:20.” Everyone laughs and agrees. The drive takes about 20-30 min. depending on your driving skills. hehe. *winkwink* We finally get there, and end up getting lost on the hospital campus. That hospital is H-U-G-E!!! We later figured out that we parked in the wrong parking deck, which caused us to miss the actual hospital. We went in the clinic, ran up the stopped escalators to the 2nd floor before Joey looked out a window and realized that we were in the wrong building. Running down the escalators, walking out random doors that we had not previously entered by, and off we were once again. We hit so many dead-ends trying to find the main entrance.
So we finally get to a building, walk inside, only to have to go through a metal dector. So off comes the keys, phones, the purse off my shoulder. Archer goes through clean, I go through clean, Zach goes through clean, and then there is Joey. He is being stopped by his pocket knife-of which he totally forgot that he had in his pocket. Needless to say, the two guardsmen are not very happy at that, and start kind of hasseling him about it. Finally one of the guards tells us that we are in the wrong area anyways, so we have to go back ouside and come in the building another way. Out into the night we go again, finding this brown double-door entrance in what looks like a sketch alley…but hey! the guard told us to go there. Thankfully the doors opened and we finally made it to where everyone else was. Since DT wasn’t in the room, we all wrote him notes of encouragement and stuff. What was really cool, was that right as we were thinking of leaving (since it was past vistor’s time) he walked into the room. So we all asked him questions and chit-chatted for a bit before praying for him. One thing that made me kinda sad, was that he had shaved off all his curls. We’re talking military buzz-cut style-its the only way he could have done it-but it was kind of weird to see him without his flippy curls. Oh well, I’m sure he’ll grow it back, and its not like it really matters in the long run, its just that I’ve never seen him with so short of hair before. Anways, walking back from the hospital, Joey scared me quite a few times. See, there were these train tracks, with these huge train cars on them, and Archer wanted to walk in-between then, and Joey told some story about him getting man-raped, so then he walked behind us. But as we are walking by them, Joey reaches out and grasps at me and I screamed! lol. And there were two cop cars down the raivine. LOL. It was hilarious! All the guys laughed at me though. Later on Joey scared me again but I didn’t scream…just yelped. haha
On the way back from the hospital, Joey let Archer have the backseat so that Archer and I could have make-out time. Talk about gag. I like Archer and all as a friend, but definetely not like that, and vice-versa. But of course, Archer being the typical guy goes along w. the joking and pretends to yawn and throw his arm across the backseat. lol. I was soo thankful that Zach drives a huge care! haha. It was hilarious but oh so weird. Brad did that to me at a movie once as a joke and it freaked me out then when he did it since we are just friends, and now Archer. *shakes head*
Oh man. I can’t wait for this week to be over. Only 3 1/2 days and spring break here I come. Nothing but relaxation at home…I’m hoping that me and the best friend can take a day trip to the beach. I really want to go just to go and get away from it all. So here’s to hoping. Anyways, if you read this, pray for my friend since his surgury is tomorrow morning. Thanks peeps. I’m out.
Peace & Love to ya!
-immashutterbug
Ominous Tracks
